A Journey begins…

Oh Heeeeyyyy!  It’s been a while since I’ve been in here … almost four years now that I look at it.  I honestly have no idea how  four years went by in a blink of an eye, but it did.    I lost my way for a while there, consumed with other things in my life and this little space went by the wayside.  I was sad about it for a long time, and if I’m fully honest,  really stressed about it, feeling such guilt for this space just sitting here untouched.   Now, I’m just grateful I’m back again  and have something I want to start sharing and writing about.

I have struggled with my weight and body image (like so many people out there) my whole life and a little over three months ago, I was in a really dark place and my negative self talk had reached an all time high and I decided I needed to do something about it…. like in the now or never kind of way.    It was really important to me to find a program that was sustainable and that I could be accountable to.  I wanted something that would  incorporate teaching you to cook and prepare your own meals (nothing prepackaged or pre prepped),  along with a focus on fitness and daily movement. I knew that I didn’t want something where you cut out everything and eat only celery and cucumbers, because lets be honest, that will never work long term.

Coincidentally, around this time, an old friend  happened to reach out to me about joining her accountability group.  **The world works in mysterious ways sometimes, or perhaps not that mysterious… if you ask you shall receive… and all that**     Regardless, she reached out to me about joining her ’21 Day Fix’ group (I’ll talk about how I hate the name later) and it met all my criteria I was looking for, so I thought yes… it’s time to do something just for you and to make a change now before its even harder to do so.   I talked to her about being scared and afraid to fail and she sent me back this picture that was a quote  and it said “Be Scared, and do it anyways”.  It was like a lightbulb went off and I thought yes… just yes.    I signed up and threw myself into it.  During the first week of workouts, I was so sore I could barely get up or down the stairs.  My coworkers  probably thought I was crazy as I limped/hobbled down the hall.   I questioned how I was going to workout with muscles that sore, but I kept at it and those sore muscles eased their way into stronger ones.  Fyi, Epsom salts and stretching became my best friends.  I followed my meal plan to the letter and was surprised how much food I was actually supposed to eat.  Most days, I found myself not wanting to eat it all because I was full and satisfied.   For those first  three weeks, I turned down offers to go out for dinner or drinks and just made sure I didn’t sabotage my plans and goals for anyone else’s expectations.   Instead I asked those friends if they wanted to meet me after dinner for a walk or a hike or I cooked a meal plan approved dinner for us all.  I knew those three weeks could make it or break it for me and I was (and still am) determined to make it to my goals.

I found the following quote a long time ago when all I did was scroll through Pinterest for motivational quotes, but didn’t do anything about them.  They sat quietly in a pin board waiting for the day that I would realize that they had power if I actually took their advice rather than just stored it away.  When I signed up  for my first accountability group, this quote came back to me and I felt this intense need to just start and not stop.  This quote is now posted next to my bed so when I wake up each morning it reminds me to just get up and start no matter what or how I’m feeling.  It keeps me moving forward!

Like many women, I often tie my self worth to how I look or feel in the mirror.   It’s sick and twisted but it is a reality I have dealt with my whole life.  There is really no one specific to blame for it, and as an adult I accept the responsibility for who I am and where I am right now. However, I do know this now… I won’t ever let myself get back to that person I was 3 months ago.  That’s enough motivation right there to keep this journey going.    I have a big goal… it’s a huge goal really, but I’m confident I’ll get there.   So if you feel like you want to follow along, I can’t promise I’ll always be sunshine and rainbows, but I can promise I will always be true,  honest, and real about this journey (both ups and downs) and what it means to me. Who knows, maybe you’ll find some inspiration along the way.

As always, thanks for listening…. and here we go!

I started this journey on April 7, 2017 and to date I have lost 23 lbs and 24 inches.   


11 Responses to “A Journey begins…”
  1. Sarah says:

    You go, girl! Get it! Get it for you! Love you, babe. Xo

  2. Margot says:

    Yay! So happy you’re writing again and thank you for your strong + truthful voice!

  3. Jackie says:

    Amazing Brooke! Thanks for being brace and sharing! You are so inspiring, thank you!!! 😘

  4. angie says:

    love it, love your positivity, love your true honesty and love your dedication to yourself! inspiring xo

  5. Marcy says:

    Very well said Brooke and from the heart. You are worth it and deserve the very best!
    Let yourself be important to you and reap the rewards. Miss you much…xo

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